as small as the world and as large as alone

2010-05-24T23:07:00.002+08:00

Move In Progress: threetimesmybody.tumblr.com

I shall leave this blogpage up anyway, should anyone wish to wade through my disgustingly long archives.

A goodbye post shall be next.

2010-05-23T20:43:00.002+08:00

I am too flippant for my own good.

Perhaps I do not want to borrow that from you tomorrow because then i'd end up chained to that escape again. Is that what i want? It sure feels good but i'm sure it isn't.

2010-05-22T23:36:00.004+08:00

NIKI'S HOUSE WAS FUNNNNN. more fun than i thought it would be (: that'll teach me to think like a spoilsport hahah! (my contacts didn't flare up)

I think one of the main reasons i put an end to it was that i couldn't figure out why you pushed certain people away but drew others in. I hope it all works out for you someday (:

my acoustic suddenly sounded like magic in Niki's house. Maybe it was the lights, or the aircon or something. I hope i can get it to sound like that again. Timo agrees!

(: (: (: happy but my ear burns.

2010-05-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

i should never have doubted you. It was a really foolish, selfish, conceited thing to do.

i'm so so sorry :( though you'll never know that i even doubted you to begin with.

Come to think of it all my thinking these past few days has been so foolish. This is why you should never trust your feelings.

(although I can't deny i loved how it felt)

2010-05-18T19:29:00.003+08:00

for the first time the sun amidst the clouds was mine and mine alone (: a step at a time.

there is a song i've learnt that explains everything in the best way possible.

also, there is a world full of colour i'd like to throw you into.

but i'm scared that it'd be just like before, that i would end up putting all this on the line only to land smack dab on my face. Would it be like this?

i shall choose to believe it won't.

but yet something gnaws at me when i see all this. but it's just me (:

on a side note, the first nick jonas song i'm proud of listening to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qQ3Sz0IMmE&feature=fvst

2010-05-17T16:24:00.005+08:00

i'm the one on the right.

(:

as i began to listen to crazy nights again today i suddenly saw that picture of that sunset which you told me about in our first or second conversation and which we later laughed over with bears and climbing in the dark and getting pushed off and i remember smiling like a fool and i was, for just a few moments, completely and totally honest with myself. it seeps in slowly, that feeling of emptiness but when you realise it's there it's like nothing else.

like i said, a clarity moment.

edit: for the first time in months, i feel free. Your place has been usurped.

edit: i am truly fascinated by my state of affairs right now. all it took was 15 seconds. Or less.

why why why why do you always turn up somehow even when i do not want to see even a trace of you around, oh my trusted friend? all the reasons that hid themselves previously are now slowly coming back to life.

although it's not your fault.

but i still don't like this ):

it's my fault oh yes it is. you remind me how lousy i am at this ): and your successes scare me.

I'm just jealous.

2010-05-16T20:20:00.002+08:00

To the one who stared furtively downwards at the ground while i struggled to find something to say, to hang in the air to make something out of all the time we had spent: i'm glad that it ended well at least. Well it's not that I have nothing to say but everytime i try to speak my mind i am filled with a terrible fear that it would make things worse somehow, although i'm pretty sure it wouldn't be that way, as i learnt with much happiness that day at that playground. Something's in the way of this, because I know that what this is is definitely not me. Perhaps it is the fault of experience, experiences that build walls all around me but one day when i finally manage to tear these demons away you shall see me for who i truly am. That day shall be a glorious day to behold.

it was a wet day.

as i sat talking to m about life, i realized two things:

1) only god can solve the biggest problems

2) we are not glorious champions when we come to an issue by ourselves

2010-05-15T22:06:00.003+08:00

these are crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy nights

And i was stuck in that place called inertia, all the while watching and wondering about what i really, actually want to do with this.

Perhaps I'm just too obsessive with all this (:

2010-05-14T22:00:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lspLW6Hv2A

i hope you'll be as blown away as i was. simply amazing.

like timo said, an artist who's famous because of his music.

2010-05-12T18:43:00.001+08:00

http://www.bgwguitars.com/data/taylor126.htm

AAAAHHHHHHH

(it costs $4500. Birthday gift for the rest of my life anyone?)

2010-05-08T23:17:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gM5TjSOQ48&feature=popular

Seriously awesome musicianship. Who would have known alliteration could be used to such effect?

2010-05-06T00:01:00.003+08:00

well timo made me realise how far off what i wrote was as compared to what i wanted.
i shall go back to the piano and write that hauntingly sad song i long for after the exams.

bah

2010-05-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSPumeiz2hM

the magic and the misery
come and go so easily
but everything you'll never be
you already are to me

2010-05-03T21:36:00.001+08:00

词:钟成虎曲:卢广仲

整个世界停止不转动很寂寞
走在海边数着萤火虫好困惑
想要的生活怎么有一百种
不想掉进这深深漩涡

整个海洋摆动柔软地举起我
孤单给我自由犹豫得好感动
想要的生活怎么有一百种
该怎么走谁来告诉我 wow

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩我猜不透

无边的宇宙哪里有我想要的生活

整个海洋摆动柔软地举起我
孤单给我自由犹豫得好感动
想要的生活怎么有一百种
该怎么走谁来告诉我 wow

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩我猜不透

无边的宇宙哪里有我想要的生活

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩我猜不透

无边的宇宙哪里有我想要的生活
我那一百种要在很就很就以后才会懂
我一百种生活

seriously tim he's freaking awesome i can't get it out of my head! the guitar is just perfect. my favourite chinese artist!

blogsurfing

2010-05-03T12:54:00.004+08:00

I went blogsurfing and found many little gems that i wanna repost here and bring back to life aha.

March 31, 2010 by shzehui

I am so tired. I am no longer thinking of words to drop into this poor strange demanding powerless proposal blinking like a face on the screen in front of me. I am thinking of Korres lip gloss and of ways to get onto the roof of my house with my guitar without falling to my death and-or destroying some small part of the universe in the process. And of Imogen Heap trapped in her little video-box singing Crop Circles in the Carpet Sinking Feeling, poor disembodied voice wrapped round itself like layered cake and creasing satin and oh, I am so very tired and so very thankful for all of this muchness.

don't you think shzehui writes beautifully! envious x10000 for such skill.

Sunday, March 30, 2008- elisha

my ipod is hanging on me. my brain is lagging on me. its bad. on the other hand i go acoustic versions of 'take it all', 'from God above' and other stuff. now i'm inspired to play acoustic again. haha. so fun.

the moral of the story, if there is one, is never ever ever underestimate the power of, no its not "i'd like that", its the guitar. haha.

ps. i bet you all didnt get the joke.
_______________________

BUT THEN, JMLOVING ME REMEMBERED THIS!

I refer you to this video of John Mayer. Who knew posts from 2 years ago could be this great lulz.

2010-05-02T14:55:00.002+08:00

the sky could be blue
i don't mind
without you it's a waste of time

without you i just slide away

2010-04-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

timo A tragedy on display says:
go write your own!!!
LOL
haha i just picked up electric and was gonna put o nthe strap and i saw a spider trying to spin a web up the neck
iwaslikewtf

!?!

lovers in japan

2010-04-28T22:32:00.003+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0c4tjuw3NWg

this is pure magic.

and somehow it feels like a little bit of that wonder, that feeling of happy confusion, being caught up in all those little conversations and secrets is coming back. all from one song?

perhaps it's just hidden somewhere deep inside.

let's just savour the moment.

lovers, keep on the road you're on
runners, until the race is run
soldiers, you've got to soldier on
sometimes even the right is wrong

safekeeping shapes

2010-04-25T22:06:00.004+08:00

my new computer is awezm.

While changing the computer and stuff, i stumbled upon a little rectangular note with a few shapes on it (with little eyes and no mouth) that i promised to keep safe but eventually forgot about.

shall never lose it again (:

it is only when i listen to 'vultures' on my new speakers that i realise just how on top of the world i used to be

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qp7DYSAwBjI

vs

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02JtvIzV0o8&annotation_id=annotation_199697&feature=iv

They're all on the same thing, but somehow I like one better, the one who gets the emotion just right.

guess which!

(: go on. laugh.

2010-04-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

why have i stopped thinking about things before i do them?

lyricspam

2010-04-18T22:57:00.004+08:00

nosuchthing (!)
neon
yourbodyisawonderland (!)
clarity (!)
3x5 (!)
whygeorgia
splitscreensadness (!)
backtoyou
greatindoors
wheel (!)

onlyheart was nice as well, but i don't know where it fits into this list.

Today, or tonight, i shall collate every (most at least) line from these songs that meant something to me at some point. Here goes.

so the good boys and girls take the so-called right track
faded whtie hats, grab their credits and
make the transfer
they read all the books but they can't find the answers

//

she comes and goes and comes and goes like no one cares

i can't be her angel now
you know it's not my place to hold her down

//

and if you want love, we'll make it
swim in a deep sea of blankets
take all your big plans and break 'em
this is bound to be a while
your body is a wonderland
your body is a wonder-i'll use my hands

//

and i will wait to find
if this will last forever
and i will pay no mind
worry 'bout no rainy weather
and i will waste no time
remaining in our lives together

//

today, all the skies were painted colours of a cowboy cliche
and strange, how clouds that look like mountains in the sky are next to mountains anyway

you should have seen that sunrise
with your own eyes

//

i am driving up
85 in the
kind of morning that
lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom

//

and i'll check the weather whereever you are
'cause i wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
it might be my only right

two wrongs make it all alright tonight
all you need is love is a lie
'cause we both loved but still said goodbye and we're tired
battered fighters

//

leaveeee the light on
i'll never give up on you
leaveee the light on
for me tooo

//

scared of the world outside you should go explore

lamplight makes the shadows play
and posters take the walls away

//

people have the right to fly
and well when it gets compromised
the heart says move along
the mind says gotcha heart
let's move it along

and airports
see this all the time
where someone's last goodbye
blends in with someone's sigh
and someone's coming home
in hand a single rose

and i won't be the first
no i won't be the first
to love her

and you won't be the first
no you won't be the first
to love me

and if you never stop when you wave goodbye
you just might find if you give it time you might
wave hello again
you just might wave hello again

bolded- EXTRA EMPHASIS ON AWESOME.

This post makes me realise how much mayer lyrics i know. Sheesh. This is getting out of hand. (:

Sorry. this post was more for me than it was for you, reader. ):

2010-04-13T20:18:00.001+08:00

SOMETIMES RETRO IS BEST K

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SCRNDQNjCK4

c'est la vie/ vive la liberté

2010-04-12T21:08:00.005+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdVKYwJMxDA

last night i promised myself once the song was done i'd stop trying for good. no good moment lasts forever (here on earth at least), be it that moment on saturday morning when you wake up and for a few seconds don't know what you're doing or where you are or anything else except that you're safe and warm, or that moment where you're watching the sunset and everything just feels fuzzy and fine. and by the time i recognise this moment it's gone.

i guess that's the way life goes. but now the rock candy's melted and i honestly, honestly am capable of not giving a damn as to how things will work out because it's never turned out well when i put my soul into it (not that it was ever promised to me that it would but i somehow had some mad foolish hope that it would). it was when i began to think about what i was really feeling that i realised how twisted this whole thing was in my mind and that once again i was terribly wrong.

and if you in any way cared about any of this in the slightest i don't care, because you never at any point even felt that it would be worth it to show that you did. (see how selfish i am! i wonder if that means i've grown but it sounds so incorrect)

maybe perhaps in the future things will work out for the better, but as for now i cannot and will not fall back into the hole i dug for myself.

I am determined to leave you and all the hours we went through in the light. where things are gently preserved in the past. they'll eventually take on a musty pale glow of nostalgia, never despairing in what could have been but instead rejoicing in whatever had transpired, lived, breathed, existed and oh! the joy i shall forever derive from reliving those moments.

but in the present we live in, i shall waste no time remaining in our lives together.

goodbye! and fare-thee-well, undecided one who is always out of our grasps.

and i will wait to find, if this will last forever
and i will wait to find, and it won't, and it won't, and it won't
and i will pay no mind, worry about no rainy weather
and i will waste no time remaining in our lives together

yellow

2010-04-08T23:32:00.002+08:00

"you are my most nauseating obsession.

I love you so much I'd do anything for you"

- cravings by chong tze chien

was quite nice. (i know this is sooo late) although really vulgar at times.

haha i realised i no longer know what to write on this place. I could tell you about my day, aha! Uhm.

Woke up 20 minutes late so i skipped breakfast and went to school
Fell asleep in class
Came home, mugged.

seriously, that's it! I hate the lack of fun/crazy stuff in my life. ):

Am looking to acquire a reasonably good acoustic guitar with pickup. Preferably a brighter guitar with a pickguard. (okay the pickguard a must! so is the pickup).

Am loving yellow more and more with each day. When I heard that they got the title 'yellow' because of some yellow pages/ telephone directory lying around i was quite disappointed. 'Cause there was so much nice and juicy speculation ('the girl he's singing about has jaundice and is yellow'! but that's weird).

perhaps you love someone so dearly that you simply have no words for it. well, what comes the closest?

actually, it's yellow. everything you do is just yellow, yellow, yellow, it was all yellow. You were just yellow. and so were the stars, and so was all existence and eternity.

don't think about it. feel it.

it calls to the deepest regions of the soul

2010-04-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

And is that alright, yeah?
I give my gun away when it's loaded
Is that alright, yeah?
If you don't shoot it how am I supposed to hold it?

shoot me damnit shoot me damnit shoot me.

2010-03-31T23:19:00.003+08:00

hey people.

i APOLOGIZE to 02 for the crappy performance manz. I was really terribly disappointed by my level of failure. ):

BUT TO MAKE UP FOR IT HERE'S AN AWESOME VIDEO OF GUITAR SKILLZ. MY EARS EXPLODED AT 0.33:
http://www.youtube.com/user/chaferbud#p/a/f/0/g3p0Qpwwydc

on further reflection, i have realised that

'If our devotion is to the cause of humanity, we will be quickly defeated and broken-hearted, since we will often be confronted with a great deal of ingratitude from other people. But if we are motivated by our love for God, no amount of ingratitude will be able to hinder us from serving one another.'

is so true.

i miss the days where friends were friends and everyone sat down together and laughed and screamed and cried.

2010-03-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FEzxchU4RUY&feature=channel

(:

i'm obsessing over elmo.

oh well projects to finish. bye!

2010-03-26T00:13:00.001+08:00

am quite stunned by the crazy amount of stuff people are saying on facebook.

yeah it'll be ready soon.

Lit play was really good. I really didn't feel like I wasted my time there, 'cause the actors were all marvelously gifted people who acted until 10++. I'm guessing they have to sleep at 3am and wake up at 7 to go to work or something. All in the name of art. (:

dry your eyes, dry your eyes, don't be afraid

jobweeek

2010-03-14T23:00:00.004+08:00

d
so 2 days of jobweek are over.

1) The 'OCBC' guy

We (me and my pal yongxin) walk up to this sprawling huge mansion. We were thinking 'aiyah no hope lah' but we decided just to try our luck and ring his intercom. Yeah, it's kinda hard to get a job when you can't even see the face of the guy you're talking to. It's really easy for him to just buzz you off since he doesn't have to look in your eyes and do it.

then:

"Could you boys stand back, I'm opening the gate."

WHATTT!

As we walked in, this middle-aged man walks up to us and says '01 or 02?' So we thought "Probably an old boy!"

Then he said: "I was from SJI 04." *peers at our nametags* "Joshua, and Yongxin. Come on in."

We were kinda delirious with happiness at that moment. The rest is history.

2) 44 “如意”

A bit of background first: the number 44 is considered very bad luck in Chinese culture as it is pronounced the same way as the Chinese word for death. So most people don't like to have that number.

This house, however, was an exception:

A rather freaky place. Not only was the number for this house 44, the neighbour actually put the words '如意' beside them (it means 'as you would like it'). Not only that, the gate had numerous signs pasted on it: 'Monitored by CCTV camera', 'BEWARE OF DOG' etcetc. Coupled with the tinted windows as well as the dark clouds looming behind the house (can't see them in the pic), this house looked like a WWII bunker out of its time. *shiver*

After a few other interesting houses which I shall have to skip over, we went somewhere else (location hidden to protect identities/ earnings of future batches ha!)

3) Nice angmoh guy

We rang the doorbell to yet another house and an irish man opened the door. (cool accent man!) He apologized for not having any money on him since he wasn't the owner of the house and spent about half a minute wishing us good luck. He had that really guilty look on his face and we walked off thinking 'what a nice guy!'

As we were ringing the doorbell of the next house, his gate suddenly crashed open and he ran out, saying "Hey! I found 5 bucks and i thought you should have it."

we were really touched. What kind of a person is this, who would go back and actually search for money in the house only to give it away later to 2 scouts at his door? Wow.

There were a few others, like

a) The family for whom we helped to pack up their books. When the mother/wife of the family saw us she gasped and said 'DID I JUST ADOPT 5 MORE KIDS???'

b) when we rang a doorbell and we heard a teenage girl squeak 'OHMYGAWD IT'S SCOUTS' and then open the door and say, "NO." and giggle. ick.

this is up to Day 2. Here's a little video or two of some weird people doing weird stuff! [to be uploaded later]

josh

2010-03-09T21:17:00.003+08:00

today i was reading matilda again, and i discovered this:

Never and never, my girl riding far and near
In the land of the hearthstone tales, and spelled asleep,
Fear or believe that the wolf in a sheepwhite hood
Loping and bleating roughly and blithely shall leap, My dear, my dear,
Out of a lair in the flocked leaves in the dew dipped year
To eat your heart in the house in the rosy wood.

if you like profound romantic poetry then http://www.crowjudith.com/article/13/in-country-sleep is the place for you.

bryan, you're way deep in the saltwater room. i had to trawl through MILLIONS of other posts to find that one okay. you know what i mean.

and, it ain't about politics y'know. we all know what he's like. our fears are (quite) justified.

2010-03-09T20:50:00.000+08:00

another of my favouritest videos.

heart that's heavy like a landfill

2010-03-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

such a pretty house and such a pretty garden

sometimes everything feels so surreal.

and mattchan, i kinda agree with everything you said haha. I love the way you put things simply. Although i disliked sitting next to your tantalizing Popeyes' chicken throughout the whole bus ride.

bruises that won't heal

i really really have something for nice smooth British voices. cue Radiohead and Embrace. Only these people can sing the word 'bellyache' and make it sound so terribly sad. I guess it's comforting not to hear those people with crazy sick voices who tear up and and down the scale with tremendous riffs once in a while.

this is my final fit

Honestly, i cannot decide whether to make posts happy or sad anymore. So, this post is a mix of both. It really does feel better to post like this. Don't know how people will read into it though. (ohmygawsh he's going to go jump off a horse! While eating a banana. Or maybe he'll be cuddling an Elmo toy.)

BUT GUESS WHAT I WATCH WHEN I'M UNHAPPY:

http://www.youtube.com/user/chaferbud#p/a/f/0/JtmgpVnS9ew

so cool/cute right!

OR

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UGCJFFxoHJ4

I <3 Muppets.

It is late. Goodbye. (:

no surprises

2010-03-07T20:38:00.002+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUgMbKJu9ws

One of the best songs i've heard in a really long time. (from house season 6 ep. 1)

a heart that's full up like a landfill

it's pretty obvious when people start copying other people.

samuel and i.

2010-03-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

Samuel

if i recall

shark is joint 3 with panther

9:45pmJoshua

YAY (:

NOT BAD MAN!

9:45pmSamuel

or was it joint 5th with orca

hmmm

yeah

top 500 list

of patrols in Raffles Institution

not bad at all:P

9:46pmJoshua

AW YEAH!

9:46pmSamuel

haha

9:46pmJoshua

HIPPY DANCE FOR SHARK

9:46pmSamuel

anyway

9:46pmJoshua

HIP HIP WAGGLE WAGGLE

9:46pmSamuel

got the email?

did you?

if you did pls send it out

9:47pmJoshua

yeah

9:47pmSamuel

and ensure i do not hav problems with it

and when i say the deadline is the 5th of march

i mean sometime reasonable

not 2359 march

or 11pm

9:49pmJoshua

okay

9:50pmSamuel

thanks josh

i love you:D

9:53pmJoshua

eeeek

this is going on my blog

2010-02-26T23:20:00.001+08:00

and after all that something i cannot comprehend tells me that it's time to rock.

i don't know why.

but sooner or later it's gonna come out somewhere man. (:

2010-02-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

orth melbourne beat Geelong woooooooooo says:
*are u the only boy that plays piano on stage in your youth?
bo says:
*yeah
*i think so
*HAHA
*i've never thought of it that way

How come I never thought of it like that? Is piano not a guy thing? (don't answer that) All you hidden male prodigies in church better come out and show your stuff.

Feminine is good right? I mean, some of the best male minds of the century were rather feminine:

CAN'T DISAGREE CAN YOU.

I frown on the fur coat. (It is fur, right?)
(oscar wilde jsyk)

YES RIGHT TOTALLY (:
okay i'm pushing it.

i have decided to look to whatever glimmer of hope may come, 'cause sometimes that may be all it takes.

awwww.

2010-02-20T13:35:00.001+08:00

my two most favourite men.

i wanna glide down over mulholland

2010-02-16T00:13:00.000+08:00

I think i've lost myself along the way.

I'd like to think I was as best a friend I could be to everyone I knew, but I've been pretty wrong. horribly wrong.

Somehow i lost what it was all about somewhere along the way.

I think I made myself out to be way more than i actually was. am. is.

Now i'm going to say what i reallllyyyy feel.

you. Honestly, you were one of the biggest pillars of my world during that crazy period in the early months of last year. We're still really cool and really fine and I hope we stay that way. For some reason i cannot fathom I trust you so much.

you. You're changing, and I love it. It started during church camp (cause before that i felt we never really connected) but now i can be (quite) free around you. I love how we both identify with the same things, 'cause no one else really does that.

you. I still feel a strange mix of emotions when I think of you, 'cause neither of us ever meant for it to be like this. But I think it's pretty clear what you want, and you haven't pointed towards anything different, and I've think i've been walking in your shadow too long. This really is surprisingly easy, considering how I know this doesn't mean i'll never want you back or that i'll never do stupid, crazy things that i'd never do, or that i won't go about life seeing little things that scream your name. But i'm not going to care. I cared for waaayyy too long, and I think it's time for me to

write her name in the sky
I wanna free fall out into nothing
Ohhh i'm gonna leave this world for a while

I really do understand this song after going through all that.

you. People love you, and you should never have to feel any different. I must confess sometimes I feel very strongly against you when you do your thing but that's always been the case. When i think carefully after that I realise I have ABSOLUTELY no reason to and it's just me being jealous/angry at my own inability to do so. Keep shining bro.

you. You've always given the best advice. Especially that day in the canteen, and those days in the seminar rooms talking about _____ and _____. And _____. I love that we have that unconditional trust. friends for life!

That's a lot of the stuff I wanted to say.

ignite your bones

2010-02-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

I adore Fix You. It's simply too nice to be real.

I have photos of a) people sleeping b) chairs hanging from holes in the wall in my class c) cow eyeball dissection photos which may or may not be allowed due to protest from various animal rights groups

all of which i would love to post, but i have no timeee. and it's late. Why am I blogging? I don't know. 'Cause i don't find much solace in blogging any more. I think I shall take to scribbling in a little black book of some sort.

I find i'm beginning to describe myself in third person in my head more and more.

There is a strange deep-seated feeling of frustration that floats around my head.

I STILL THINK JOHN MAYER IS AWESOMEZ. I don't care if he may have autotuned/melodyned some of his 'where the light is' concert. It sounds real enough. (if you wanna tell, listen to the line 'if my past is any sign of your future' in the song 'I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You)'. The sudden re-tune is glaringly obvious.

In other mayer-related news, i find that certain songs played at certain times of day sound so much better they give me shivers:

DAWN: 3x5

NOON: Your Body Is A Wonderland, My Stupid Mouth, Why Georgia, No Such Thing

SUNSET: In Your Atmosphere, WHEEL, Stop This Train, The Blower's Daughter, Cannonball, 83

NIGHT: Neon (duh), anything by fionn regan, Slow Dancing in a Burning Room

The rest work reasonably well anytime.

On yet another note, CAMPFIRE WAS AWESOME. PCAD was amazing. How on earth do you set up scenes in 10 seconds! Although that was mostly due to Ms Liew's chasing. It was quite funny to watch (sorry).

Aidan, your female roles always turn the entire crowd off and on at the same time. Don't know how or why that happens. Everyone says 'ew' but later poses for pictures with you at the end.

whew.

2010-02-05T19:02:00.001+08:00

OH GOSH I LOVE THIS

2010-02-05T18:46:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fZ0tZBC8vuk

I think our dear John's discovering that his old side is so adorable. Ever heard No Such Thing with his new, super nice, super clean voice?

oh gosh oh gosh. i think mayer's back

talllll

2010-02-04T20:39:00.001+08:00

GleN-001 Exia says:
*josh... what hv u been telling yr mum abt me?? she told me just now "i pictured u shorter"!
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*HAHAHAH
GleN-001 Exia says:
*what dfid u tell her abt me huh ???
*8o|
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*nothing!
*honest!
GleN-001 Exia says:
*sure..
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*reallly!
GleN-001 Exia says:
*whatever
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*):
*glen doesn't believe me
GleN-001 Exia says:
*tall lah. fine lah
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*HAHAHAHA
*not my choice
GleN-001 Exia says:
*D:
*-.-
*=.=
*!!!!
*dammit
on the breath that you were finished with says:
*i'm sooo posting this on my blog
*this is funny
GleN-001 Exia says:
*.......
*bah

2010-02-01T17:40:00.000+08:00

'Tis time for a long and lengthy post on just about everything I wanna say to all of y'all.

fly

honestly, time is getting tighter and tighter and i fear that church may start to fade out of my mind. Which is something i really do not want to happen. and church is really the most important thing in my heart. i miss all y'all already, and it's only been one week.

worship is fun and worship makes everything complete, but i yearn for the day where i shall finally sing and dance in pure, blessed rapture as david did. someday, someday.

and for a few people:

timo, you're changing. i think it started in camp, and it's as if a smoother, more focused, sweeter timo is rising up. i love it man! we have, uh, ways to go yet (although smeagol from lotr said that but THAT'S IRRELEVANT).

shanz, i honestly honestly have done nothing to deserve such awesomeness from you. i dearly hope that someday i shall be able to repay all this kindness (:

as for you, tbh i cannot tell how much of what you do or say or express is directed towards me. although sometimes i cannot help but feel that it simply has to be, after reading and re-reading and thinking and re-thinking and all this thinking and fretting ties my heart up in knots. i remember there once was a time where all this was so much easier but that doesn't mean that i'll give up now that it's uncomfortable. rawr i am terribly sorry for not being able to decipher all your riddles. although i don't know what to do or what to say (or what to think even because more than half of the time i'm wrong).

have no fear for giving in
have no fear for giving over

i shall post about school another time. work calls.

2010-01-24T22:59:00.000+08:00

timo This is exile. says:
OMG
JUST WHEN
I THOUGHT
I FINISHED MY EMATH
I TORE THE WORKSHEET OUT TO STAPLE IT TO MY PAPAER
AND
UNDER IT
WAS
3 MORE
QNS
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
ERIHAEO IEURZHTIRSGSEXR
ERT NSE4509JSEU
T9YS4A
Rain says:
LOL
you stink : )
timo This is exile. says:
WZI9IKY

timo This is exile. just sent you a nudge.

timo This is exile. says:
ERGTFDRTR GHCTRY
XTGS
EZTEXD
H.
coolnes (twloha) says:
can i post that?
i'm desperate for post material
timo This is exile. says:
sure:)
Rain says:
gonna start math read 10 pages of ss finalli : )
timo This is exile. says:
post my anger for all the world to se

2010-01-24T08:57:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging before church. How sacrilegious.

jamming with loojuin is ultimate fun! No we will not get married. but i guess i should arrange for more sessions with him. SO FUNN.

I AM CONTEMPLATING changing address because my mom is all over this place. So scary for your parents to read your blogs. They're supposed to be private! ):

ahwell. I am waiting for something huge and scary to happen so I can blog about it. Until then, ta.

2010-01-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

My awesome class' awesome masterpiece.

dusk at bartley

sunset. bartley

'for every cloud has a silver lining'. somewhere near home

and they advance. ri

i so do like random photo posts! documenting times quite long past and times rather recent.

2010-01-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

It is now one of my greatest dreams to set up a home recording studio and go mad with 15 guitar tracks laid on top of each other. (:

week 3. let's go

2010-01-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

hello my friend (but then again, what are you?)

and i guess it was all me wasn't it and too many times i have failed (don't say no because if i think i've failed then i truly and surely have)

~~i shall do what i do for you one last time and then i'm through. unless something suddenly happens 'cause i'm sick of being~~

damnit i'm going to be the last one standing. so go ahead, shoot.

which has to be sung with the desperation of a dying earth (which screams to the sun)

2010-01-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

Show encrypted text

mr. mysterious

2010-01-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

One fine day:

coolnes (twloha) says:
hahahahahaa
actually
school has been pretty fun
but i'm abnormal
and the class thinks i'm crazy
Rain says:
haha fun is another thing! sec4 is dead exciting haha but tiring still
you're crazy???
coolnes (twloha) says:
HAHA
Rain says:
haha that's one of the last words i'd say you are
coolnes (twloha) says:
i'm uh
different
Rain says:
I AM THOUGH
:)
coolnes (twloha) says:
from what i am in church

So that got me thinking. How different am i, really? So i asked a few, uh, friends for their input on this.

First was Bryan:

coolnes (twloha) says:
eh bryan
can you describe me
bryanlee says:
sexy
i mean
uh
responsible
concerned
considerate
coolnes (twloha) says:
as if
bryanlee says:
energetic
coolnes (twloha) says:
where got concerned
bryanlee says:
why?
coolnes (twloha) says:
haha
it
bryanlee says:
\for sec1s
coolnes (twloha) says:
*it's not for anything
bryanlee says:
im thinking about your pslness
why?
coolnes (twloha) says:
just describe like you'd descfibe in school
eg
'gay'
bryanlee says:
ohwaiiiiiiit
this is a diff josh
coolnes (twloha) says:
HAHAHA
bryanlee says:
its the gay one
coolnes (twloha) says:
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
bryanlee says:
yea
gay
coolnes (twloha) says:
SIGH.
bryanlee says:
homo
loser
fag
i mean flag
whats it for?
coolnes (twloha) says:
a blogpost (:
THANKS

hmmm!

Perhaps a junior, Shawn, could give me some other interesting answers:

oolnes (twloha) says:
HEY
uh
could i ask a favour of you
awks888 says:
yo
yeah
sure
coolnes (twloha) says:
can you describe me
what am i like (from what you know)
don't have to be like nice or anything
awks888 says:
OK
how many words
?
coolnes (twloha) says:
as many as you want
awks888 says:
Ok
...
wait
i find that ur a very outspoken person and that ur very funny. You are also quite responsible and take things seriously. U are also a loyal friend.
coolnes (twloha) says:
hahaha
okayy
thanks (:
it's for a, uh
blogspot
awks888 says:
LOL

Shall add more responses as they come in. (:

2010-01-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

I took my love down to Violet Hill
There we sat in snow
All that time she was silent still

i love how worship always makes things brighter.

anywayz school has started and it's actually pretty fun! with my retarded, funky and starkravingmad class. We have a, uh, 'hard' peteach called mr. chng. He has an adorable son! I think it's a very guy thing to love children. Don't you? (:

and honestly, it's not very nice that we should always split like that. The worst part is that it's the same lines that we split upon. It is really quite obvious.

i think we've worked for so long against this that to simply let it drop now would be a total waste of effort and time.

2010-01-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

funny how the clouds, no matter how thick or ominous always roll back and the sun shines out all the brighter.

and it stings when there's no one to blame

2010-01-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

Cause I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say this is the way that I used to be
There's no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
Split screen sadness
We share the sadness

trust me, you're not the only one who misses us.

So I'll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right

it sucks to realise how little is left for you to do, in some mad hope.

2010-01-03T21:26:00.000+08:00

don't turn away
dry your eyes, dry your eyes
don't be afraid
but keep it all inside, all inside
when you fall apart
dry your eyes, dry your eyes

but life is always hard
for the belle of the boulevard

a new term is starting. Oddly, i don't feel as if I've rested at all. On the other hand the holidays did seem very long. Camp in december is almost distant history now.

new dreams, new everything.

lets go.

i know i'm still hiding. why?

2010-01-02T10:53:00.000+08:00

1. Cobra Starship
Good Girls Go Bad (1701)

2. The Killers
When You Were Young (551)

3. Mickey Avalon
My Dick (539)

why does that weird song have 3x views over when you were young? heresy. ):

REVIEW: ELIXIR NANOWEB GAUGE 12s

These strings are sweet! They really sing and add life to your guitar. Anti-rust, coated. Feels like silk to slide your fingers on. A pleasure to fingerpick.

Only drawback is the 3rd string (d) is a tad too sharp. Otherwise, perfect. Pair these with a bright acoustic, not one like my mellow one. A bit odd if you do so. Use your fingers to strum rather than a pick, it sounds better (on my guitar).

(:

2009-12-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

MY GUITAR STRING JUST SNAPPED!!!!!!!! D'ADDARIO EXP16 GAUGE 12s THAT ARE SUPPOSED TO LAST HALF A YEAR SNAPPED WITHIN 2 WEEKS. ): ): ):

burn a hole in my pocket.

In other news, avatar is great. 3d is even better.

mmrbgh.

theory (which timo says he sucks at which is a lie.)

2009-12-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

i have a strange quirky and altogether unreliable theory about songs:

most songs are average. some songs make you feel great after listening to them (e.g. belle of the boulevard, smile [uncle kracker], that's what you get, love story

MAYER: great indoors, no such thing, my stupid mouth etc.)

some songs speak of greater beauty (amie/ the blower's daughter/ 24-25/ slow dancing

MAYER: slow dancing!!!, 3x5, neon, in your atmosphere etc.)

whereas truly great songs present in amazing fashion the undeniable truth (i don't know

MAYER: WHEEEEELLLLL!!!!!!!!!! (which is my new favourite song))

why do all my posts reek of mayer. Oh wait, reek has bad connotations so i shall say carry the sweet and cloying scent instead:

why do all my posts carry the sweet and cloying scent of mayer?

ahh the inner fanboy approved of that. (:

2009-12-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

and now the hols are almost over and i'm wondering what i did with my hols.

I
1) woke up in the afternoon
2) learnt (sort of) slow dancing and in your atmosphere
3) wrote a christmas present
4) played guitar till 3 in the morning
5) made new friends
6) wrote christmas cards

i think i squandered a lot of my days simply doing nothing. what a waste.

although the holidays have been quite interesting and fun indeed, somehow there's some greater goal that i failed to achieve and it sucks to not know what it is.

OH AND I DO NOT LIE WHEN I SAY THAT YOU ALWAYS KNOW SOMEONE WHO KNOWS SOMEONE WHO KNOWS SOMEONE WHO HAPPENS TO BE YOUR BEST FRIEND IN P6. we're all connected you know.

anyways i keep coming back to wheel by john mayer which happens to be one of my favourite songs of all time (to rival slow dancing). possibly the most underrated song in the whole wide world (in which i am just a passing stranger)

you can't build a house of leaves
And live like it's an evergreen
It's just a season thing
It's just this thing that seasons do

i built a house of leaves didn't i,

(for want of a roof)

2009-12-21T21:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's like someone took a knife baby
Edgy and dull and cut a six-inch valley
Through the middle of my skull

but if fear hasn't killed me yet then nothing will i guess.

although i think i make you jump through many many unfair hoops in my mind.

Well, at least it feels that way.

bring everyone you know

2009-12-18T19:36:00.000+08:00

i think i have spent too little time spacing out and too much time thinking about real stuff like what i'm going to do with the year ahead.

And i think i've been scared? and often too afraid or even too complacent to get things moving. Rest assured I'm not gonna let that happen anymore.

there's nowhere to run

2009-12-09T12:45:00.000+08:00

Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less.

-rabbi julius gordon

2009-12-07T20:34:00.000+08:00

CAMP IS OVERRRRR. it was GREAT while it lasted though.

Moments I remember:

Messing up in worship (where i miss drum cuts, play with wrong time signatures and hit wrong chords but who cares!)

Awesome intro by first day team (:

CRAZY breakdown in 'you are good' (loojuin base solo + 'base! drums! keys!')

Watching bella and dawei go crazy. Mostly bella. (:

Looking up at loo juin who has to take photos and miss out on all the games. aww.

Laughing as sherwyn gets mobbed by 3/4 of the campers in an attempt to pull pegs off his shirt.

Watching as kenneth flips up and down while playing pepsi cola.

Watching joel ruthlessly massacre the other team in bulletproof (kamikaze anyone?)

LAST NIGHT WITH 1 HOUR OF SLEEP! STAYING UP TILL 5 AT THE BBALL COURT DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING (unless poking moses in the ribs counts! and looking at dawei's star and defending john mayer)

tbc. dead tired

2009-12-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

'cause we are coming to each other to change

eh eh sherwyn upload the video leh! someone point him to this place.

mmhh.

2009-11-25T13:12:00.000+08:00

anywayz. battle studies is out! i NEED to buy it soon.

am REALLY pleased that many people like it [sudeep + many others]

will be gone for a while. long long car drive.

i think i'm going to resort to poaching lines from poems as themes for my/your/their song(s). Simply can't put it down on my own. Sucks badly.

anyway, ISLAND CREAMERY + RANDOM KID MACHINE + DAWEI = SUPER RANDOM FUNNESS! still waiting on sherwyn to upload the video of us being spastic (:

bah.

Battle Studies.

2009-11-11T21:21:00.000+08:00

Now that I've heard the entire album >5 times, time for a proper analysis. Generally this album is a step away from the rollicking blues of Continuum and Try!. No, it's not even Any Given Thursday, this album is just alt. pop through and through.

Heartbreak Warfare- Very, very solid. Good refrain. I'm addicted
Edge Of Desire- Closer to Continuum than the rest, but still a long way off. I love the chorus though, it has to be one of the best ever written!
Who Says- Though not that powerful, it was a good teaser song. Plus it's really easy to associate with and it's quite personal so.
All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye- Not bad again. Although the refrain gets a bit repetitive after a while.
Half of My Heart- Strangely, the refrain is spammed even more than the song above but i like it! I was kinda looking forward to a swift-mayer duet although that didn't happen. Still, really nice and sweet as a song.
Assassin- Not bad! Really very interesting and nice to listen to. Gets that bitter feeling across so very well.

Now come the rest-

War of My Life- Not powerful, just meh. Although there are some pretty good ideas in there.
Perfectly Lonely- MEH. Average. Although again still solid musically.
Do You Know Me- I found this one REALLY weird. It reminded me of cigarette butts and Italian ashtrays for some reason. I think it was the brushes on the drum.
Crossroads- HUH? what's with that cheap guitar sound?

Conclusion: A solid album, much like Heavier Things. Songs aren't really as powerful, but hey, it's after WTLI. Of course they're not as powerful. A step in a different direction? Yes. Experimental? Yes. Isn't this the case about albums after great albums? (:

Still, buy it. It will look REALLY good on your shelf!

2009-11-11T19:19:00.000+08:00

am slightly disappointed by battle studies.

edge of desire (to me) is the best song inside! amazing chorus

. half of my heart and assassin are decent lah.

do you know me and perfectly lonely... uh.

no taking on water on this album. wonder where it is

bah. i feel strangely let down ):

2009-11-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9iYqf4V0ZlU

But I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)

<3! (:

2009-10-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

don't want to do this anymore.
i almost thought for once. how long can i wait
though i said i would wait as long as it takes
as long as it takes rends me piece by piece.

2009-10-30T18:58:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9bNNTlg1tWU&feature=player_embedded

Heartbreak Warfare + All We Ever Do Is Say Goodbye + Who Says + ASSASSIN (:

I think this album will be da bomb. really good this time round, though not as much a stunner as Continuum.

Crossroads is... weird.

2009-10-27T23:30:00.000+08:00

Joel. says:
webby...
sheesh
thedy dont say.....
sigh....
i miss glen....
oh well...
ajckets guess when! says:
HAHA WHAT
OKAY I'M POSTING THIS ON MY BLOG ^^

Glen, if you're reading this, make sure your windows are shut tightly tonight. AND locked. A strange furry beast might make his way into your room, otherwise.

2009-10-27T15:31:00.001+08:00

Baby, you could jump a hundred times
There’s just no way that you’ll ever fall out of my graces, out of my graces
Let’s say for a second that you ever do
And it gets hard to look at you
Time will erase it, time will erase it

You can use me up, kick me down
As much as you like, we’re good on time
Cause, guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over
Guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over

You can cut your hair just to grow it back
Or dye it till the sink turns black
I’ll recognize you, I’ll recognize you

When you lose your way and I’m doing fine
I’ll even lose my place in line
I’ll help you find it, I’ll help you find it

Cause, guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over
Guess who desperately wants you, over and over
Over and over

-john mayer

WOOT RARE UNDISCOVERED SONG WHICH HAS BEEN FOUND BY ME (: SPAM LEARN

9 crimes

2009-10-25T20:49:00.000+08:00

is that alright? (yeah)
i give my gun away when it's loaded

is that alright? (yeah)
if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it

it's a small crime, and i've got no excuse

2009-10-21T19:24:00.000+08:00

countdown: 5 days to happiness!

oh oh i was reading old chat transcripts and:

eclipse bear says:

only 4 ppl left

tag my blog hs!

solar bear says:

give me a reason to!

eclipse bear says:

because ur my friend

bvrain says:

tag my blog!

because it made you laugh

HAHA

pwned

solar bear says:

HAHAHA

HAHA

bvrain says:

HAHAHA

eclipse bear says:

bvrain says:

HAHAHAHAHA

sorry

2009-10-15T16:32:00.000+08:00

" 'cause when you care, you'll just keep giving and giving till there's nothing left, even if the world doesn't give back and when you're empty you realise you don't know what or who you are."

-secretpoet

2009-10-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

i shall proceed to edit with GIMP (:

slfair

2009-10-07T09:45:00.000+08:00

today is the SL fair. which means freetime (:

am not sure whether i was of much help?

tiredness!

2009-10-02T07:53:00.000+08:00

But I will sing of thy power; yea, I will sing aloud of thy mercy in the morning: for thou hast been my defence and refuge in the day of my trouble.

i think i like the NIV version better: 'I will wake the morn.' (:

2009-10-01T23:45:00.001+08:00

harlo.

the all too famous ernxu is beside me at this very moment. Say hi to ernxu.

He stares away from the screen. How impolite!

randomness.

ANYWAYZ it be 11.52 and i should be sleeping soon, except I need to study for two maths tests tomorrow as well as finish a history powerpoint. With 8 minutes of internet left! *gulp*

songlist 29/9 09

2009-09-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

i simply have to redo my songlists!

top10

1) Slow Dancing In A Burning Room by John Mayer- Bitterness epitomised.
'i was the one you always wanted, you were the one i tried to draw, how dare you say it's nothing to me, baby you're the only light i ever saw.'

2) In Your Atmosphere by John Mayer- again, this would be my favourite except for the fact that there aren't too many versions of it (electric, acoustic etc.)
'think i'm gonna stay, gonna stay, in the grey, think i'm gonna stay... and all the streetlights sing nevermind, nevermind, and the canyon lines say nevermind... and the sunset says it sees this all the time...'

3) Winning A Battle, Losing The War by Kings of Convenience- this perfectly sums up my heart.
'even though i'm not her minder, even though she doesn't want me around i am on my feet to find her, on my feet to keep her safe from harm.'

4) I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You) by John Mayer- uber cool intro, wonderful lyrics. Win.
'and if my past is any sign of your future' or 'who do you love, girl i see through, through your love'

5) Say by John Mayer- CLASSIC DUH
'have no fear for givin' in, have no fear for givin' over, you better know that in the end, it's better to say too much than never to say what you need to say again'

6) Neon by John Mayer (WTLI Version or alternatively the Eagles' Ballroom funk version)-
Lyrics are pretty good, and the above two versions are simply unsurpassed in skill.
'but it's hard for me to take a stand, when i would take her any way i can'

7) The Buildup by Kings of Convenience- This song brought me through painful times. Sentimental ol' me can't part with it.
'the spinnin' top, made a sound, like the train across the valley; faded, oh so quiet, but constant till it passed'

8) Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova- you should know this.
'i don't know you but i want you even more for that'

9) With You by Chris Brown- I reserve the right to go mainstream once in a while ^^
'you mean to me what i mean to you'

10) Good Love is On The Way by John Mayer- the best pick-me-up song ever.
'i'll be lonely but i know i'll be okay, good love is on the wayyyyy'

(:

2009-09-21T22:59:00.001+08:00

Show encrypted text

don't worry, if you're reading this you're not the you mentioned.

2009-09-20T22:14:00.000+08:00

sigh.

perhaps knowing too much isn't good?

fine lah password protect. hmph.

josh vs ben

2009-09-19T22:33:00.000+08:00

she has a smile that melts my heart,
her radiant face is a piece of art.
i treat her to show, to let her know
there is no other girl, that could make my mouth curl.
i have made her sad, it makes me feel bad
but at the end of the day im still her good friend
and ill love her till the end.

she wears a smile like spring in may
her laughter cures a dreary day
i listen to speak, to show i seek
her tenderest truths, with patience as proof
i've broken her heart, it tears me apart
but careening in circles we're back at the start
and together we'll be set apart.

HAHA ben what do you think (: i love the contrasts.

oh no what's this

2009-09-15T16:19:00.000+08:00

While looking through random people's blog archives I found some, uh

disturbing

stuff.

But all those were in like 2007-2008?

still some of it is quite inappropriate. ahhhh

a lengthy post at last!

2009-09-15T14:05:00.000+08:00

Heellooo. I realise I haven't really posted a long post in an even longer time. Perhaps that's got to do with the coming EOYs. But i shall make a valiant attempt at catharsis today!

school schmool

School's begun again for me and it's 'back to the grind', as my mum likes to put it. It's even more hectic now, the exams are now exactly one month away (oh no!) At least I've started studying already. I know people who haven't started. Good luck to those few.

DMP was reintroduced after a whole wave of student protests, and it's really fun! For the first time I actually get to choose what I want to do.

Okay maybe not EVERYTHING i want to do but still i'm happy (:

boarding schmoarding

Boarding is actually really useful. For one I can actually study better in school. And the internet's up till 12 (: and it's the best feeling ever to exit the dining hall and lo and behold! you're in school already.

Although personally I feel that rollcall is rather unnecessary. Cuts into all my plans. Ah well. The food's really good too (so stop complaining that the chicken is like rubber all you maggots). Like, restaurant standard. Okay slightly lower BUT STILL it's very nice kays.

fly schmly

I'm glad to say that my CG is really getting all active and happy and high now! For one our CG identity is there (HAHA thanks to liz and jj and meee) and we all love each other lots. Although there's still a lot more that we can do. Of which I shall be talking to jiajun and liz and maybe niki (:

I really learnt a lot about our batch in the 3/4 of a year I really came back. Made a heck lot of new friends, reconnected with some old ones. There are a few really outstanding members in our batch which I have noticed. Again more discussion with more church people is required. :D

Worship has been really rewarding too. There is no other feeling like it, climbing onto the stage and really just having fun worshipping God. I believe as much as God wants us to worship him for being awesome and powerful (!!!!YEAH!!!!) I think worship in some part is also meant for us to express our love and get in touch with emotions. (:

on a side note i need tsura to help help help me and send me the thing for understudies so I can create a new-fangled shiny nice new proper training thing! as charged by random people.

finally i'm done. RE TIME

josh

2009-09-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

hmm. while one is in boarding there suddenly appears a huge space of loneliness in one's chest.

The place is really quiet and none of my friends are here anw, so it's time to get some studying down.

(:

so great

2009-09-13T14:52:00.000+08:00

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it's been a long while since i last released an encrypted post.

2009-09-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

i give up

i give up (give up i give up) why am
i doing all the dreaming
(weighed with all the worrying)
i shall place all you all out of side out of (mind me)
and watch little truths
lies
sideways glances
explode like little july fireworks in my sleep

i give up (give up i give up) why are
you always dragging up the dark
(dancing up the devil)
i shall put all you all away (is far away)
and watch little shouts
screams
words said on knees
rattle the bottles on a shelf called back then

2009-09-09T12:58:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee

skills camp was fun, somewhat. random lectures.

Away from boarding and I find I really enjoy home better.

hmm. Somehow the words won't come out today.

board

2009-09-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

And yes, I am finally in boarding. After 2 nights in boarding I have learnt some (interesting) stuff!

1) Laundry forms disappear FAST.

2) Everything needs forms.

3) You do not sleep earlier than 12 as a rule of thumb.

4) Roll call sucks.

5) Prep sucks (less).

Anyway, it's a lot better than i expected but STILL people are complaining about random things like the taste of the eggs at breakfast. Oh well.

Prep is coming. Time to mug maths and philosophy and lit (:

2009-08-31T10:09:00.000+08:00

When sky blue gets dark enough
To see the colors of the city lights
A trail of ruby red and diamond white
Hits her like a sunrise
-johnmayer

Scared of a world outside you should go explore
Pull all the shades and wander the great indoors
The great indoors

Lamplight makes the shadows play
And posters take the walls away
The T.V. is your window pane
The view won't let you down
So put your faith in a late night show
I bet you didn't even know
Depends on how far out you go
The channel numbers change

2009-08-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

The spinning top
Made a sound
Like a train
Across the valley
Fading
Oh so quiet
But constant 'til it passed
Over the ridge
Into the distances
Written on your ticket
To remind you where to stop
And when to get off

when to get off

2009-08-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

I can't call you a friend
Cause when you left me here
You left me here to die
Don't worry I won't call you again
Cause when I take a hint
I take it pretty hard
And when you broke my heart
you broke it into shards of glass

The telephone yells out
At me to wake
I won't be blamed
For someone else's mistakes
It's your sweet voice
Sounding cheery and warm
It breaks my heart
But I summon up all my charm

hmm.

new songlist

2009-08-28T00:20:00.001+08:00

i've given up on ranking.

top picks

mayer:

slow dancing in a burning room
in your atmosphere
free fallin'
say
i don't trust myself (with loving you)
vultures
neon
possibly good love is on the way?

kings of convenience:
misread
know-how
winning the battle, losing the war
cayman islands
buildup
homesick

other random songs:
stardust: music sounds better with you [french house]
thomas bangalter: so much love to give [french house]
blink 182: i miss you
coldplay: violet hill
coldplay: fix you
coldplay: in my place
thirsty merc: everything but you
glen hansard and marketa irglova: falling slowly (trust me you all know this song it's that big)

should be all for nao (:

as small as the world

2009-08-25T23:54:00.001+08:00

isn't the new title nice? (:

in the dark

2009-08-24T19:44:00.000+08:00

draw the curtains
turn off the lights
but leave that small lamp on

put on some misread
paste a skyline on the wall
turn on the air-con

and just dance.

i did that and it filled up all the empty spaces in me. (:

do it with me.

2009-08-23T14:28:00.001+08:00

new favourites list:

SONGS
1) Slow Dancing in a Burning Room by John Mayer
2) Free Fallin' covered by John Mayer
3) Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova
3 1/2) Say by John Mayer
4) Fix You by Coldplay
4 1/2) I Don't Trust Myself (With Loving You) by John Mayer
5) Violet Hill by Coldplay
6) In My Place by Coldplay
7) I'll See You Soon by Coldplay
8) I Miss You by Blink 182 [classic classic classic]

thats all for now

[edit: this entire list is now invalid thanks to the Kings of Convenience]

what sisters are for

2009-08-22T22:30:00.001+08:00

solar bear says:
so actually I should just get a diary
except my sister would read it
Wow!

bvrain says:
such a wicked sister haha

solar bear says:
That's what sisters are for
hahaha

bvrain says:
HAHAHAHAHA
i'm saving that line

solar bear says:
HAHA

2009-08-22T22:21:00.000+08:00

bvrain says:
wooeeweeooo
but seriously
sam
can you reassign to shaun
he'll have problems
tell him to do the photo part
kay

Glen 001 says:
zzz

Samuel says:
get dehn to finish asap

Glen 001 says:
u get lah

Samuel says:
coz i also need to do publications

Glen 001 says:
u grp leader

Samuel says:
fine

bvrain says:
HAHAHAHAHAHA
i'm posting that on my blog

how the work gets delegated here in my sweet ol' RI 3018 group,

2009-08-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

oh yeahhh.

what goes into writing a song

2009-08-22T10:48:00.000+08:00

I'm posting this on impulse (as usual) since some people have asked how I come up with songs. I'm a bad example so don't learn from me. Go learn from John Mayer:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXfErND38PI

But anyway. It goes one of two ways:

1) I stumble upon a nice riff/ chord progression.

What this means is that I take a guitar chord and bend it, twist it until I find something new. It's a very long and difficult process and I've only succeeded once. Which is a very bad statistic, considering I've been trying for six months.

Horrifying thing is I can do that in 5 minutes on the piano. BUT I don't want my songs on the piano. Which is a frustrating reality.

2) I have an idea/motivation.

What this means is that during the day I could just be thinking about random things and suddenly a nice line pops into my head. As I was telling a friend, "One day I was walking with Anne and Rain, and I was beside them, and there was this stack of signs in front of me that I was being forced into because of where Anne had positioned herself. And suddenly I remembered all the movies where guys gawk at girls and they let go of their drink, for example. Or walk into signs. That's a huge cliche but suddenly this line appeared in my head:" You walk me into signs."

Which has the potential to be some super sweet cute line in some soppy love song. Which i will never write. I claim ownership over the line though, so hands off.

Or I want to write something for someone. Although this is quite rare this kind of project gets finished, not abandoned halfway or thrown by the wayside. I don't know why but it just does.

Then you have to write lyrics. How do you write lyrics? I don't really want to go into details but first you should set down a criteria for the words you use. Then you 'force' words into that criteria. e.g. John Mayer's 'heart in my hands'. Or 'tiny tragedies'. By themselves they don't make sense but in the larger sense of the song it works and when people see the way it works, that particular way you 'forced' it in they think it's great.

I think.

oh well.