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I shall leave this blogpage up anyway, should anyone wish to wade through my disgustingly long archives.

A goodbye post shall be next.

I am too flippant for my own good.


Perhaps I do not want to borrow that from you tomorrow because then i'd end up chained to that escape again. Is that what i want? It sure feels good but i'm sure it isn't.

NIKI'S HOUSE WAS FUNNNNN. more fun than i thought it would be (: that'll teach me to think like a spoilsport hahah! (my contacts didn't flare up)

I think one of the main reasons i put an end to it was that i couldn't figure out why you pushed certain people away but drew others in. I hope it all works out for you someday (:

my acoustic suddenly sounded like magic in Niki's house. Maybe it was the lights, or the aircon or something. I hope i can get it to sound like that again. Timo agrees!

(: (: (: happy but my ear burns.

i should never have doubted you. It was a really foolish, selfish, conceited thing to do.

i'm so so sorry :( though you'll never know that i even doubted you to begin with.

Come to think of it all my thinking these past few days has been so foolish. This is why you should never trust your feelings.

(although I can't deny i loved how it felt)

for the first time the sun amidst the clouds was mine and mine alone (: a step at a time.

there is a song i've learnt that explains everything in the best way possible.

also, there is a world full of colour i'd like to throw you into.

but i'm scared that it'd be just like before, that i would end up putting all this on the line only to land smack dab on my face. Would it be like this?

i shall choose to believe it won't.

but yet something gnaws at me when i see all this. but it's just me (:




on a side note, the first nick jonas song i'm proud of listening to:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qQ3Sz0IMmE&feature=fvst

i'm the one on the right.


(:



as i began to listen to crazy nights again today i suddenly saw that picture of that sunset which you told me about in our first or second conversation and which we later laughed over with bears and climbing in the dark and getting pushed off and i remember smiling like a fool and i was, for just a few moments, completely and totally honest with myself. it seeps in slowly, that feeling of emptiness but when you realise it's there it's like nothing else.

like i said, a clarity moment.

edit: for the first time in months, i feel free. Your place has been usurped.


edit: i am truly fascinated by my state of affairs right now. all it took was 15 seconds. Or less.

why why why why do you always turn up somehow even when i do not want to see even a trace of you around, oh my trusted friend? all the reasons that hid themselves previously are now slowly coming back to life.

although it's not your fault.

but i still don't like this ):

it's my fault oh yes it is. you remind me how lousy i am at this ): and your successes scare me.

I'm just jealous.

To the one who stared furtively downwards at the ground while i struggled to find something to say, to hang in the air to make something out of all the time we had spent: i'm glad that it ended well at least. Well it's not that I have nothing to say but everytime i try to speak my mind i am filled with a terrible fear that it would make things worse somehow, although i'm pretty sure it wouldn't be that way, as i learnt with much happiness that day at that playground. Something's in the way of this, because I know that what this is is definitely not me. Perhaps it is the fault of experience, experiences that build walls all around me but one day when i finally manage to tear these demons away you shall see me for who i truly am. That day shall be a glorious day to behold.

it was a wet day.

as i sat talking to m about life, i realized two things:

1) only god can solve the biggest problems

2) we are not glorious champions when we come to an issue by ourselves

these are crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy nights

And i was stuck in that place called inertia, all the while watching and wondering about what i really, actually want to do with this.

Perhaps I'm just too obsessive with all this (:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3lspLW6Hv2A


i hope you'll be as blown away as i was. simply amazing.


like timo said, an artist who's famous because of his music.

http://www.bgwguitars.com/data/taylor126.htm




AAAAHHHHHHH









(it costs $4500. Birthday gift for the rest of my life anyone?)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0gM5TjSOQ48&feature=popular

Seriously awesome musicianship. Who would have known alliteration could be used to such effect?

well timo made me realise how far off what i wrote was as compared to what i wanted.
i shall go back to the piano and write that hauntingly sad song i long for after the exams.



bah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSPumeiz2hM

the magic and the misery
come and go so easily
but everything you'll never be
you already are to me

词:钟成虎 曲:卢广仲


整个世界 停止 不转动 很寂寞
走在海边 数着 萤火虫 好困惑
想要的生活怎么有一百种
不想掉进这深深 漩涡

整个海洋 摆动 柔软地 举起我
孤单给我 自由 犹豫得 好感动
想要的生活怎么有一百种
该怎么走 谁来告诉我 wow

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱 不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩 我猜不透

无边的宇宙 哪里有我想要的生活

整个海洋 摆动 柔软地 举起我
孤单给我 自由 犹豫得 好感动
想要的生活怎么有一百种
该怎么走 谁来告诉我 wow

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱 不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩 我猜不透

无边的宇宙 哪里有我想要的生活

每当我背对星空
抱着地球
发现自己其实脆弱 不敢说

当我背对星空
孤独摸索
爱情渐渐萎缩 我猜不透

无边的宇宙 哪里有我想要的生活
我那一百种 要在很就很就以后才会懂
我一百种生活

seriously tim he's freaking awesome i can't get it out of my head! the guitar is just perfect. my favourite chinese artist!

blogsurfing

I went blogsurfing and found many little gems that i wanna repost here and bring back to life aha.

March 31, 2010 by shzehui

I am so tired. I am no longer thinking of words to drop into this poor strange demanding powerless proposal blinking like a face on the screen in front of me. I am thinking of Korres lip gloss and of ways to get onto the roof of my house with my guitar without falling to my death and-or destroying some small part of the universe in the process. And of Imogen Heap trapped in her little video-box singing Crop Circles in the Carpet Sinking Feeling, poor disembodied voice wrapped round itself like layered cake and creasing satin and oh, I am so very tired and so very thankful for all of this muchness.

don't you think shzehui writes beautifully! envious x10000 for such skill.

Sunday, March 30, 2008- elisha

my ipod is hanging on me. my brain is lagging on me. its bad. on the other hand i go acoustic versions of 'take it all', 'from God above' and other stuff. now i'm inspired to play acoustic again. haha. so fun.

the moral of the story, if there is one, is never ever ever underestimate the power of, no its not "i'd like that", its the guitar. haha.



ps. i bet you all didnt get the joke.
_______________________

BUT THEN, JMLOVING ME REMEMBERED THIS!

I refer you to this video of John Mayer. Who knew posts from 2 years ago could be this great lulz.

the sky could be blue
i don't mind
without you it's a waste of time

without you i just slide away